“Just for Today”
Poem

"Just for Today" Poem
Just for Today… in Memory of my Son
Just for today… I will try to live through the next 24 hours
not expecting to get over my son’s death,
but learning to live with it, one day at a time.
Just for today… I will remember Andrew’s life, not just his death,
and bask in the comfort of all those treasured days
and moments we shared.
Just for today… I will forgive all the family and friends
who didn’t help or comfort me the way I needed them to.
They truly did not know how.
Just for today… I will reach out to comfort a relative or friend of my son,
for they are hurting too,
and perhaps we can help each other.
Just for today… I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt.
For deep in my heart, I know if there was anything in this world
I could have done to save Andrew from death, I would have done it.
Just for today… I will honor my son’s memory
by doing something with another child
because I know that would make my own child proud.
Just for today… I will offer my hand in friendship
to another bereaved parent
for I can deeply relate to how they feel.
Just for today… I will smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside,
for maybe if I smile a little,
my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.
Just for today… when my heart feels like breaking,
I will stop and remember that grief is the price we pay for loving.
The reason I hurt is because I had the privilege of loving Andrew so much.
Just for today… I will not compare myself with others.
I am fortunate to have been Andrew’s mother and to have had him for as long as I did.
His life helped to shape the person that I am today.
Just for today… I will accept that I did NOT die when my son did.
My life did go on and I am the only one
who can make that life worthwhile again.
Just for today… I will allow myself to be happy,
for I know that I am not deserting him by living on.
~~~~written by Vicki Tushingham
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“Just for Today” has helped me so much, especially in the early stages of grief. 15+ years into this journey and this amazing poem still speaks to my heart-mind-soul! I pray that this poem helps others the same way! I decided to use this poem as a tool to make grieving bearable. The printed-out poem was posted in several high visibility areas throughout our home. (Next to the front door to see when coming or going out into the world, on the bathroom mirror to read while I brushed my teeth each morning and evening, beside the kitchen sink so I could focus on it while washing dinner dishes, etc.) By posting it, I could see it and read it several times a day. In the beginning of this grief journey, I could only focus on one stanza a day. Many times, I focused on those three lines of text until I 'mastered' it (or grew weary of it). I’d write the stanza on an index card and keep it in my pocket. When the day became too difficult, the index card gave me something to focus my attention on. I only had to get through the next minute, hour, afternoon, evening, then night. The chosen verse became my mantra for the day. Sometimes it took DAYS or WEEKS to feel that I could move onto the next part of the poem. Over time, I learned that I could do 2 or 3 stanzas in a day. Now I do most, if not all, EVERYDAY. This poem still helps me to prepare for unique events like weddings, baby showers, life events my son’s friends, as well as the anniversaries of his birth and death.
In those early days, I completely skipped over some parts altogether. How would I ever have anything to give to another bereaved person like the poem suggests? I found a way. By sharing this very poem and letter as a snapshot of my heart and story with you, I am offering my hand in friendship to you, my fellow bereaved person. Know that I am always here for you.
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